I'm tired. Exhausted actually. Today and tomorrow are looming over me like a black cloud (thanks to you, mortgage company). 2 more days to buy groceries and gasoline before "payday". I have, thus far, sold enough art, mostly framed originals, to keep a bit of food in the house but I still have 2. more. days. to. go.
I am forcing myself to think forward. My plum tree is putting on her frilly white springtime costume, begging me to pay attention...
With yesterday's rain came a tentative hope. Just a simple, short term hope that somehow, we'll make it through this, just as we've scrambled and clawed our way through the last 4 years.
Out of the dark clouds...
comes a fresh beauty...
a hint of better times ahead...
When I feel a darkness setting into my thoughts, I literally close my eyes and ...
I imagine that I am here ~ on this dirt road in the richness of the Ozarks. This road that I walked up and down countless times on my childhood vacations...
Ohhhh, and this photo, this particular photo can make me smile even on the bleakest days...
That's my grandpa on the right...the gentleman with the bandaged finger. I don't know what the story is, but I always like to imagine that the rabbit gave him a little nip on the finger!
...and, my art. My passion since forever...
I try to keep it tucked away in my heart all the time. But, when life gets ugly, art can easily find it's way to the back-burner.
I have several shows to create for and a few other good things on the horizon, but over the last week or so, I haven't given much thought to any of it. That makes me sad. It makes me angry and sad that money worries can take away all the light in your life. It can suck the living breath out of you! I hate money for what it does TO people instead of FOR them.
So...while I'm looking forward, the reality is that I have 2 more days to go. 2 more dinners to prepare, 2 more days of keeping that gas gauge just a wee bit above the "E". I am hopeful that I can sell a couple more framed originals.
I have just listed 2 framed originals that have never been in my shop before. I do offer them in print form, but the originals were never offered until today. They were both created for my "Connecting Spaces" show...
This piece, entitled: "An Unexpected Visitor" is based on "Little Red Riding Hood". It was recently published in "Pasticcio Quartz" Issue 13. ...
AND
This piece, entitled: "The Haunting of La Llorona" (which is filled with all sorts of personal meaning for me. The image of the weeping woman is actually my daughter. She does a lot of modeling for my work).
Both of these pieces are framed up in simple, black frames and they are both now listed in my ART SHOP. One of them hangs above my computer and the other hangs in my studio. I'll keep them listed through Wednesday in hopes of conjuring up a bit of money for groceries and gasoline.
Again, let me thank everyone for all the kind and supportive emails I have received. Thank you, as well, to everyone that's purchased from me during this ridiculous mortgage faux pas.
The next time you hear from me, I will have a full tank of gas and a full belly too! Times are gonna get better.
Until Next Time:
xoxo
Kim
Gerushia's New World
5 comments:
What a wonderful post this was - and what a wonderful outlook you have in the most trying of times! Things will be better - (I wish I could, but I can't) - and I believe that we are never given more than we can handle....we are given just enough to pull out the very best in us, that the very best has just slipped down to a level that we need to explore a little more........Hugs to you Gerushia - it WILL be better.
I understand what you're going through (maybe not perfectly, but being tight on money is a common feeling around here). I'm glad you can see the light at the end of the tunnel - it's getting closer every minute!
I recently got out of a tight money spot, thanks to my tax refund. 2 large bills that were looming are now gone, and it certainly lifts the spirits to be free of money troubles again. I know you will feel that way again soon.
~Sunfire
It is exasperating that the dollar rules us so fiercely. Your perserverance and positive attitude play a huge role in tolerating the wait. Best wishes!
I have been where you are, sort of. not with mortgage but with money worries, many different times in my adult life. But none stress me like nowadays. I too am trying my hand at selling my creations, and the lack of $ is even more stressful because there is no steady income.
This too shall pass....it is a good saying, but sometimes it is a long haul until it is past.
You will get through, and you will be stronger for it. And whenever you need to vent, share, or just want ears, well that is what we are for. :)
Good luck with your sales.
~Rebecca
Beautiful flowers on the photograph. I also am very grateful for my art, keeping me happy. I know how the lack of money can take away your joy of life, because i am on this road too. And next month it's going to be worse, even less money. But i try to not get paniced and focus on all the good stuff in my daily life. Sometimes that is hard, but that's the only way to survive this.
Take care, sending you warm thoughts.....
Monica
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