I can't believe it's been over 3 months since my last visit.
Life has been a roller coaster.
Has it ever been that way for you?
Up and down.
Up and down.
A whirlwind right in my very own home.
Life has been crazy ~
Awful, good, sad, creative and insane all rolled into one big unforgettable year.
My husband got a job....thank goodness.
He was hired at the end of July.
Then, my car caught on fire.
But, the worst, saddest, most heartbreaking thing happened ~
So horrible I can barely type it here.
We lost our beloved Kelly to a disease she had been fighting all of her short life.
We thought she was better.
She had not been sick for almost a year.
It came on so quickly and she failed so fast.
We weren't able to save her.
Of all the other craziness going on in our lives,
losing Kelly shattered our hearts the most.
Her brother, Kenan, had never spent a single day away from her.
He's getting better now~
Finding his own way, bit by bit.
Playing with his toys ~
They did everything together.
Nap time ~
Birdwatching ~
Studio visits ~
and playtime ~
Kenan sticks to me like glue.
He's my shadow ~
We are smothering him with love and attention.
Probably too much because he likes to set his own pace.
But, he's going to be okay.
He can hang with me all day in my studio ~
Losing Kelly hurt so much for so many different reasons.
Too many reasons to name right now.
But, somehow I had to stop crying.
I just couldn't stop crying.
So, I forced myself back to my art.
It is true ~
Art Heals.
Art and family and time and hope.
We are healing little by little.
But I know we will never stop missing her.
In the meantime:
I am finding bits of goodness.
Firelight sunsets ~
An unexpected visitor ~
Who now has his own chair ~
Freshly baked apple pies ~
And the lovely chaos of the Halloween season ~
So, life is a whirlwind.
Sadness and healing.
Good and bad.
Light and dark.
My friend Vanessa told me ~
"This whirlwind of a life is like hanging on to your ruby slippers through a tornado."
Right now, I am hanging on tight.
And I'm happy to be back.
Healing and hoping.
Until Next Time:
Kim
Gerushia's New World
