Friday, October 3, 2014

Sadness and Healing. Good and Bad. Light and Dark.

I can't believe it's been over 3 months since my last visit.

Life has been a roller coaster.
Has it ever been that way for you?
Up and down.
Up and down.


A whirlwind right in my very own home.

Life has been crazy ~
Awful, good, sad, creative and insane all rolled into one big unforgettable year.

My husband got a job....thank goodness.
He was hired at the end of July.

Then, my car caught on fire.

But, the worst, saddest, most heartbreaking thing happened ~
So horrible I can barely type it here.
We lost our beloved Kelly to a disease she had been fighting all of her short life.



We thought she was better.
She had not been sick for almost a year.
It came on so quickly and she failed so fast.
We weren't able to save her.


Of all the other craziness going on in our lives,
losing Kelly shattered our hearts the most.

Her brother, Kenan, had never spent a single day away from her.
He's getting better now~


Finding his own way, bit by bit.
Playing with his toys ~ 


They did everything together.
Nap time ~


Birdwatching ~ 


Studio visits ~


and playtime ~


Kenan sticks to me like glue.
He's my shadow ~ 


We are smothering him with love and attention.
Probably too much because he likes to set his own pace.

But, he's going to be okay.
He can hang with me all day in my studio ~ 



Losing Kelly hurt so much for so many different reasons.
Too many reasons to name right now.

But, somehow I had to stop crying.
I just couldn't stop crying.

So, I forced myself back to my art.
It is true ~ 

Art Heals.

Art and family and time and hope.

We are healing little by little.
But I know we will never stop missing her.

In the meantime:

I am finding bits of goodness.

Firelight sunsets ~ 


An unexpected visitor ~ 


Who now has his own chair ~


Freshly baked apple pies ~ 


And the lovely chaos of the Halloween season ~ 


So, life is a whirlwind.
Sadness and healing.
Good and bad.
Light and dark.

My friend Vanessa told me ~
 "This whirlwind of a life is like hanging on to your ruby slippers through a tornado."



Right now, I am hanging on tight.
And I'm happy to be back.
Healing and hoping.


Until Next Time:
Kim
Gerushia's New World


6 comments:

http://afancifultwist.typepad.com said...

HUGEST hug ever ever ever ever ever known in history.

Sobs.

You did it, you hung onto your ruby slippers!!!

Poor healing hearts, poor Kelly.

Life can be so hard.

You are so brave, crawling out of every cliff fall, and climbing cliffs again. Waving from the tops. Bravery!

You are amazing!

So much love, me and miles and matty and lovee too.

xoxox

Gerushia's New World said...

Vanessa:

Thank you for always being there to help me back up. What a crazy couple of years we've both had. And you're right, we managed to hang on to those ruby slippers.

All my love to you and matty and miles and lovee too!

Robert C. 'Bob' Johnson said...

Kim, a friend used to describe her pets as her "verbally-challenged" children. Pets are part of our hearts, no question.

I continue to admire your quiet strength and dedication.

Peace and blessings.

Laura Tieri said...

Good to see you're back! I've been checking in here on & off. Tonight I just saw your comment at Vanessa's & came here to check again.
I'm so sorry about your puppy. I cried reading your post while seeing all those wonderful photos. I'm sending out a cyber hug to you! Those are a couple of cutie pies!
I'm glad to hear that your hubby found a job!!!
I still have to get my Halloween stuff out. I can't believe it's almost that time!
Here comes another cyber hug, take care! :0)

Gerushia's New World said...

Robert:

Thank you so much for visiting my blog. You have always been so kind to me and I am honored to know that you enjoy my art.

xoxo
Kim

Gerushia's New World said...

Hi Laura!

Thank you for continuing to check in during those quiet months. I just couldn't find my way back until this morning.

It was a difficult post to write, but I'm glad I did. I knew it had to be done.

It's so hot here. Too hot to decorate for Halloween, but I'm doing it anyway! I won't let the heat stop me.

xoxo
Kim