I wonder if you know how long it's been since I've felt a "good tired"? Not tired from worry or laundry or bill paying, but tired from accomplishment.
This week has been a sort of turning point for me. I've managed to finish a three piece custom order AND finish and list 5 new pieces for my Etsy Shop.
Last year, at this time, my mom was in a Board and Care and on her way out of this sometimes broken world. I was her advocate, her guardian, her mom and her daughter. Art?....I don't think so.
After she passed away, my nights were filled with odd and other-worldly nightmares. I questioned my choice of care for her and wondered if I had done all that could be done. I lived in a hazy sort of guilt for months. I still have nightmares (but I always have) and I still hope that I did all the best I could for her. But as time has passed, some of the cold and foggy guilt has lifted and I've been left with time to dilly-dally with my art.
Isn't it curious how guilt can steal away our freedom and cause us to question our choices? If left unattended, guilt can cause us to withdraw from our very lives.
So...for me, these 5 finished pieces truly are more than the simple watercolor brushstrokes. More than the cut and paste, more than the composition. They are a step out, a step up, a step in the right direction?
Notes of June 5" x 7"
Sunday Drive With June
A Windy Day for June
Notes of June
Thank you so very much for having a look:
Gerushia's New World